Sorry y'all it's been a month since I posted last. It's just been a combination of things over time that finally culminated this weekend.
First was not recognizing, and then not caring about, my chronic depression. It's funny how when you realize it's happening that you just don't care, roll over & go back to sleep. Don't get me wrong; my life is going great...kids well behaved & enjoying themselves, love my house & where we're at, hubby's great & we're mostly healthy. It's just my mind sinks into a weary, non-caring mood that I can't snap out of.
Secondly was the overwhelming Tinnitus. Y'all know my C.I. broke in November & it's almost 7 months of full deafness. Most days the tinnitus is a low hum, like having your head against a furnace all the time; other days it's like a train rushing by at full speed; still other days it's like an atrium of birds that won't shut up! The irony is that the cure for Tinnitus is "sound therapy"!! On top of the tinnitus are the earworms!! Songs that randomly play over 'n over in my mind. I wouldn't mind them if they were whole songs, but noooo it gets stuck & plays a part again and again like a warped record!! The only solace I get from the tinnitus & earworms are plenty of naps. Which my depression goes "great idea!"
Thirdly was allergies & a head cold that was slow to build. I'm one of those people who just don't suddenly get sick, have a 24hr bug, then up & at it again. This weekend it exploded with a big allergy head cold, arthritis attack, then loopy from meds & I slept 12 hours Saturday & 14 hours Sunday.
Guess my body really needed it!
So now it's a new week & I feel better than I have in a long while, both mentally and physically.
So it's back to blogging, writing, and enjoying life again.
Tracy,
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