It's been a while....

It's been a while since I've posted anything.....

I've just been feeling sluggish and tired for a long while. Don't know whether if it's due to fatigue from my kidney disease, been down with one cold or another, Seasonal Affective Disorder, or just sick of the weather.

GO AWAY WINTER!! COLDS!!! & BLAHS!!!

Another part of it is ME. I've grown up and gone on so long doing things to please others that when it comes to ME, I put myself last. Whether it's taking less food on my plate so that there's enough food for everyone, waiting until my running shoes are absolutely falling apart before buying a new pair because I'd rather spend the money on other necessities. I get scolded by Randy sometimes on this, he tells me "if you need or want something, GET IT! You don't need my permission or approval!" I guess it goes back to my insecurity of "being a burden" mentality.

Also another part of it is just plain weariness. Since I'm pretty easily physically drained and tired, that leads up to being mentally drained and weary. I end up being in a mental fog, things that were told to me are soon forgotten a few minutes later, I end up telling people things and hear "you said that 5 minutes ago". I think up plans for this Website, things to do or try......Meh.

So, looking at the weather, it'll finally be in the 70s next week. I can get out and start my daily walks again and that's what they say, exercise is a mood lifter.

But right now I'm just gonna try and hang on.....

Tracy,
"One finds limits by pushing them" ~ Herbert Simon